japangirlcmw wrote:I'm trying to focus on the 'getting in' rather than the 'If I don't get in', simply because I can't even deal with the latter right now. I'll get past it if I don't, but it will be such a hard hit to the system.
If I do get in, it will be that feeling of 'Everything has been for this. This was coming. All the years that you have loved Japan, wanted to be in Japan, wanted to learn more about Japan and live that dream--It's HERE.' There will be a DATE, not just 'Someday soon, I'm going to go to Japan. I think it will feel like a dream for a few days, too good to be true--And then the work will begin. I'm so excited for that day, I just have to focus on that Positivity. I think that we all should.
And yes, lots of calling relatives, lots of tears (I'm an emotional person!), lots of nostalgic memories of how much I've worked for this moment, some triumphant music, and yes--Some celebratory Tonkatsu may be in order!
Good luck to EVERYONE! It's almost the fated day!
I understand that feel.
Personally, I do not want to psych myself out. It's a big deal. I think not getting in will be a severe blow considering the magnitude of the program. But I have high spirits and will try to remain positive these last, few, weeks. I do not know how I will react and I doubt anyone here would. It depends on how emotionally invested you are. I can say I am very invested.
If I do not get in, or if I am alternated, I'll just move on with life as I've done with every other disappointment. But, if I do get in, I'll be the happiest motherf*cker on the planet. Excuse my french.